Don's Profile

Hello. This is the first time for me to write this all down and try to figure out.why i feel this way. So here it goes.... April 2011 had my first tricuspid heart valve transplant with pig bovine. I had gotten endocarditis infection in my heart my lungs my knee and ankle. I was a drug addict for 12 years and been clean now ever since april 2011 my surgery. I was a 38 year old contractor and master plumber. I really bounced back and went back to life like normal about 8 months later. Then in Dec of 2015 i felt down and exhusted and my monthly ehco showed my replacement valve was closing. After blood thinners after heart caths. After valvopastic stretching trying to.open it and 2 months in hospital i had my second tricuspid valve transplat with cow bovine this time. Also beimg sick i was retaining water like crazy before the surgery. I went from 260 to 300lbs. Ever simce my surgery i did not lose any of it. That was 2 years ago and now im gaining more.water weight.again.. Im 340 as of today. I talk 120 mlgs. Of lasiks daily and that just geta me.to night. So the extra weight and my copd and some breathing problems i talk to my.cardio. doctor and they want me to go through the er to start iv water lasiks. I am scared to go back into the hospital because i barely made it out the last surgery. After my second surgery i had total heart blockage and wouldnt get off a resperater for 3 days. Then my wife oked from them to put in a pacemaker and finally i woke up. But.i was not all there. I couldnr remember my kids names or ages or what year or day it was. All i remember was everything lookes like yellow for some reason and i hummed when sitting up. I really scared my wife 2 more days in icu acting like that. Finally i come out of a fog and it.all hit me and i remembered. 6 days later i went home. But i feel total exhausting and like i said i am full of water.. I dont feel the same way like my first surgery. I am forgetting things and lose consintraightion easyly. I just am so.lost now and dont want to go in hospjtal again. I dont think i would make it through a 3rd surgery if it came to that.. I am 48 years old and feel like 80 now. Does anyone else feel like this? I know.im depressed from feeling like half a man i use to be.. What should i do? It gets so hard living with CHF left side ontop of other health issues. I eat a good diet and no junk. Im just so tired of being sick and tired if u can understand that. Any opinions greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading. God bless u all.