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Today was my 4th month check up. Last night I didn't sleep much at all - just fretting that something will be wrong. Drove down to the hospital and immediately felt that I didn't want to be there. Went into the Cardiologist's office and anxiety tripled. First, weight taken and I had gained 20 pounds since surgery, knew I had gained, but not that much. They took my BP and it was high, more anxiety. Talked for awhile with the Cardiologist and he even realized how tightly wound I was. Talked some more, but could not relax. I had a doppler scheduled for an hour after my appointment and had more anxiety when they started scanning my right artery - immediately asked why and if there was something wrong. No - standard procedure. They scanned the left and I was done. While walking toward the exit, the cardiologist saw me and asked if I wanted him to read me the results of the doppler. Sure. It is so maddening when Drs hmmmm, stare, nod and hmmm some more. Anyhow, the Card says my blood is flowing too fast - just about flipped me out. My brain could not absorb the clogged condition moving to flowing too fast. Of course he did explain the dynamics of fluid physics, which made more sense, but didn't help the anxiety. Anyhow, after more talking things out, I did feel a little better with the knowledge that it could take a year from surgery for my body to become more stable - not sure that's the right word. The cardiologist DID say I looked good for only 4 months out and that he didn't want to see me for 6 months. He also told me to stop eating sodium, put my feet up more and if I had any pain call. I used to smoke 2 packs a day and stopped, suddenly when I ended up in the ER - another thing the body has to adjust. So he could understand the eating everything in sight part - so walk instead of eat. I walk 2 miles everyday now, guess it will be 5 soon. All in all, it has not been a good day and I'm ready to go to bed, put the pillow over my head and pray tomorrow is better.